It's has been a very long time, I didn't blog.
Recently, has been met up with my friend, Boon Yew, quite frequently. Last saturday, met up with him at his place because he helped me to record the 7 pm (Saturday) drama serials. After watching the video, we had heart to heart talk.
He told me that he is interested in me and he wants to get marry with me, but he told me that he can't afford to throw wedding dinner because he has no money. He said that he has no money now as he still owes his sister's money (he bought a resale 3 room flat at Ang Mo Kio, the ex-owner was asking from him $10k cash for the house) and he is also paying his study loan (got his master degree last year). So these 2 to 3 years, he has to pay for his loans. Then, he suggested that just go for ROM.
After hearing what he said, I was quite disappointed and depressed. I disappointed is because marriage is once in a life time and it is every girl's dream to have a romantic and memorable wedding. To me, I would like to be a beautiful bride and have a wonderful wedding. Depressed is I really don't know whether I should accept him as my boyfriend cum husband. We have been knowing each other around 20 over years. All these while, we are friends and frankly speaking, I don't really knows him well. Though knows him for over 20 over years, he doesn't share with me about his family and himself. He used to be ignorant and selfish. He don't really care for friends and he wouldn't be bother about it.
Sometimes, I really don't know what is on his mind. To be specify, we don't really goes well with each other. His thinking and my thinking is very far apart. He can plans for his future but as for me, i take one step by one step and takes nature as it's own course. I don't plans for my future as I know that life is short. We don't know what will happens to us tomorrow.
After last week, these few days, I have been thinking whether I should continue to meet up with him or starts relationship with him or not. I really in a dilema. Who can helps me???
Well, the only thing I can do now is let nature take it own course.
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